[ that gets a slight laugh, sort of a barked out noise. ]
Oh, trust me. I am very aware. [ trauma blackouts are his specialty! but, he reaches up to rub his face under his glasses, slowly starting to come down from the sight of that. ]
No magic healing, there. It took me weeks to recover. [ not that he regrets it. ] But I decided I didn't want to die.
I'm grateful to hear it. [Because she wouldn't want to join up with somebody who wouldn't at least try to live. It's all their survival on the line... Or it was, before they truly became Swept Theory.]
[ it's a callback to their conversation from yesterday - the corner of his mouth lifts, in a slight smile.
there's a hesitation, and then a flicker in his emotions - this sense of deep sorrow, swirling in with something else, a bitter unhappiness. on the surface, he looks the same. ]
... It was part of what made me so angry. Everything about Friday made me angry, but I had already saved his life from that, once.
I'm not - well. I won't say that. I am still angry.
[ he will probably always be angry. ] The two of them should be extremely glad that I was dead.
I'm sorry, that you had to - [ fei du trails off for a moment, briefly - there's a ripple of that matching effect of pain she felt earlier. ] ... Know what that feels like, too. How unlucky - let's hope Libby never has to complete the set.
Kyoko has a very difficult tie staying angry, but that's distinctly what makes her herself. Humans and Digimon are all different, but this is just who Kyoko and Alphamon are.]
It was only momentary for me, at least. [Kazuki and Eiden she worries over much more. At least she's used to taking some kinds of damage. Those two...]
We'll all hope for that. I don't think we'll get another set of special missions this close to the end but... we'll see.
A lot of them seem to be based in people's memories, so in a dissociative way, it makes sense. If they're based on what someone experienced, then, it seems right that we need to experience it the way they did.
[ a pause. ]
Though, my first one wasn't. All of those were in my second one.
[ he holds up one finger. ] As far as I could recall, I had lived a thousand years before I was shot down from the sky by the archer himself. After that, I lived a second life [ two fingers ] where I met up with the others who were with us, and we went to the kingdom of Yan to try and solve the problems there. More specifically, to solve what remained in the aftermath of the tale. I died, trying to...
[ ... ]
... Trying to fix something that went wrong. And then, I woke up a third time with new information about the story, and we traveled off somewhere else to try and set things right. So. Three times.
[That's not exactly how the story goes, but she supposes when she tells the Crane-Wife it's a little different every time. Depending on the story teller, the story changes bit by bit every time.
She catches the trailing off, but she won't push.]
Three seems to be a theme in fairy tales. This does sound exhausting.
but yes, his story wasn't quite the same. there were lots of smaller, more tender details, lots of things that went wrong. he'd tell her if she asked, but he appreciates the discretion. ] Someone told Wenzhou about it, and they shouldn't have. It wasn't that big of a deal, it was just tiring.
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Human bodies are fragile that way. Things that are traumatic do tend to get blocked out.
[Its why she didn't go as herself that night. She didn't know who she'd meet, and Kyoko's body... Alphamon didn't choose it because it could fight.]
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Oh, trust me. I am very aware. [ trauma blackouts are his specialty! but, he reaches up to rub his face under his glasses, slowly starting to come down from the sight of that. ]
No magic healing, there. It took me weeks to recover. [ not that he regrets it. ] But I decided I didn't want to die.
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[ it's a callback to their conversation from yesterday - the corner of his mouth lifts, in a slight smile.
there's a hesitation, and then a flicker in his emotions - this sense of deep sorrow, swirling in with something else, a bitter unhappiness. on the surface, he looks the same. ]
... It was part of what made me so angry. Everything about Friday made me angry, but I had already saved his life from that, once.
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... Yes, I can understand that. You have every right to be angry.
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[ he will probably always be angry. ] The two of them should be extremely glad that I was dead.
I'm sorry, that you had to - [ fei du trails off for a moment, briefly - there's a ripple of that matching effect of pain she felt earlier. ] ... Know what that feels like, too. How unlucky - let's hope Libby never has to complete the set.
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Kyoko has a very difficult tie staying angry, but that's distinctly what makes her herself. Humans and Digimon are all different, but this is just who Kyoko and Alphamon are.]
It was only momentary for me, at least. [Kazuki and Eiden she worries over much more. At least she's used to taking some kinds of damage. Those two...]
We'll all hope for that. I don't think we'll get another set of special missions this close to the end but... we'll see.
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[ sometimes your luck is also really bad and you get drawn into two terrible thursday missions and one of them happens after you die.
also in his baby heart he wants to make sure wenzhou doesn't have to go on another one. he's seen enough. :( ]
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I'm already dealing with five lifetimes of memories thanks to them. My own and Kyoko's were enough to begin with.
[Please stop giving her fake memories. This feels insane.]
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Three, for me. [ bad!!! ] These things have a way of making you believe you're something you aren't.
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[ a pause. ]
Though, my first one wasn't. All of those were in my second one.
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What did they make you believe?
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[ he had such a time ]
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[Which one?]
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Sort of. Are you familiar with Chinese fairytales?
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[In that she does love lore and wikidives.]
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...It was the legend of Hou Yi and Chang'e. The story of the ten suns.
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Kyoko nods.]
With the elixir of immortality. The reason for the mid-autumn festival, isn't it?
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a little nod in return. ]
The story was a little different than the original, but, yes. I found myself in the position of Chang'e.
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And you... went over this story three times?
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[ he holds up one finger. ] As far as I could recall, I had lived a thousand years before I was shot down from the sky by the archer himself. After that, I lived a second life [ two fingers ] where I met up with the others who were with us, and we went to the kingdom of Yan to try and solve the problems there. More specifically, to solve what remained in the aftermath of the tale. I died, trying to...
[ ... ]
... Trying to fix something that went wrong. And then, I woke up a third time with new information about the story, and we traveled off somewhere else to try and set things right. So. Three times.
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She catches the trailing off, but she won't push.]
Three seems to be a theme in fairy tales. This does sound exhausting.
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[ :/
but yes, his story wasn't quite the same. there were lots of smaller, more tender details, lots of things that went wrong. he'd tell her if she asked, but he appreciates the discretion. ] Someone told Wenzhou about it, and they shouldn't have. It wasn't that big of a deal, it was just tiring.
[ :/ :/ :/ :/ ]
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[:)]
Tiring or not, he does worry for you.
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